Qualia

Smile with me
Before I become your topic of envy
Praise who I appear to be
Before questioning my character, when others can not see
I’m sure that I’m so much more wicked
Than you ever predicted
How else can I laugh
After pruning in the bloodbath
How else can I smile with such glee
When I had not one, but two, corpses fold beneath me
Turns out that the most horrific violence
Can be witnessed in silence
Screams, of course, were had
But they weren’t nearly as bad
As the cries that never came
From the ones who’d only have their names
Carved on stone
You may see me on your phone
As stunning, fabulous, the one everyone must be jealous of
Thank you, cause my reflections show me no love
Only guilt
From the life that I built
After my grasp was torn
From the twins that arrived stillborn